Wednesday, February 24, 2010
enlightenment?
I've started meditating recently--well, today--and I've found that it does help to some extent. I find that my life is generally full of self-imposed stress. I am constantly trying to improve this but it seems though as if I am under constant scrutiny. I dislike being bothered by little things. I also dislike being around people that seem to agitate me all the time. I hate being around people that are constantly arguing--like my parents when they're together. I understand that I've been a part of huge arguments that I could have easily avoided had I been the stronger man.
The truth is, I have an inherent desire to convince people that I am right most of the time. Maybe I am, maybe I am not. I tend to notice small things that most people don't. And when I point it out to them, they never seem to get it and continue with their stance. I have a lot of pet peeves as a result of this and it's time that I stopped doing so. I've started screening people's calls on a regular basis now. Before I'd answer just to find out what was going on. Now, I simply don't bother if it doesn't suit my fancy.
So yeah, let's see how this turns out.
The truth is, I have an inherent desire to convince people that I am right most of the time. Maybe I am, maybe I am not. I tend to notice small things that most people don't. And when I point it out to them, they never seem to get it and continue with their stance. I have a lot of pet peeves as a result of this and it's time that I stopped doing so. I've started screening people's calls on a regular basis now. Before I'd answer just to find out what was going on. Now, I simply don't bother if it doesn't suit my fancy.
So yeah, let's see how this turns out.
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
it's been nearly 2 weeks since I last blogged, which doesn't seem like much considering I've gone months before; however, it's not a healthy choice if I plan on preventing that from happening again.
So anyways, I handed in my supplementary material for PDP a couple of days ago, so I just have to play the waiting-game regarding that. As far as other things are concerned, I am not doing too well in my only course (animal physiology lab) because I just don't seem to give a shit about it. I should care, but I don't.
On an aside, I only have $447.80 in my bank account. This is rather unacceptable because I told myself that I would not let it get below a grand and yet I did. It's now below 500 and I am going to have to work my ass off to get it back up. Hopefully I can get a job where I can work full-time instead of part-time.
I am likely going to India in April to have my knee fixed because this piece-of-shit medical system is not worth fucking my knee over repeatedly.
That ends this post.
So anyways, I handed in my supplementary material for PDP a couple of days ago, so I just have to play the waiting-game regarding that. As far as other things are concerned, I am not doing too well in my only course (animal physiology lab) because I just don't seem to give a shit about it. I should care, but I don't.
On an aside, I only have $447.80 in my bank account. This is rather unacceptable because I told myself that I would not let it get below a grand and yet I did. It's now below 500 and I am going to have to work my ass off to get it back up. Hopefully I can get a job where I can work full-time instead of part-time.
I am likely going to India in April to have my knee fixed because this piece-of-shit medical system is not worth fucking my knee over repeatedly.
That ends this post.
