Saturday, February 23, 2008
I am back to my angry, seditious mood. Ooh, I used a presumably complicated word. Perhaps my sentences don't even make much sense, because they're usually awkward and cluttered. This would probably add to the plethora of mistakes I usually make, right?
Right about now, I don't feel like doing anybody any good. What has doing good for people gotten me. Perhaps I should just be a self-centered asshole to everyone. Need any help? don't look at me.
I am about half-serious in just becoming a nomad, travelling from town to town with no specific objective. It's ridiculous how things have gotten and for such little purpose.
I want to move out, but I have no money. I've disowned half of my family, and it will probably remain that way. None of you have gone through what I have. It's ridiculous and unfair. Why couldn't some of you atleast have had such a horrid past as me? It's ridiculous how well I've turned out considering the dreadful past that plagues me. I wish I was stupid like my brother. Stupid and ignorant. Nope, I couldn't do it. I had to have a heart. It was just my curse that I've been struck with hate and compassion all at once.
Perhaps this isn't even making much sense.
Why do people even get angry? or share any other emotion? What does it all mean in the end?
You know what it means? of course you fucking don't, because none of you reading this will have the fucking balls to even make one comment on it. Why? because you're just as clueless as the rest of them with regards to what the fuck I am talking about.
Right about now, I don't feel like doing anybody any good. What has doing good for people gotten me. Perhaps I should just be a self-centered asshole to everyone. Need any help? don't look at me.
I am about half-serious in just becoming a nomad, travelling from town to town with no specific objective. It's ridiculous how things have gotten and for such little purpose.
I want to move out, but I have no money. I've disowned half of my family, and it will probably remain that way. None of you have gone through what I have. It's ridiculous and unfair. Why couldn't some of you atleast have had such a horrid past as me? It's ridiculous how well I've turned out considering the dreadful past that plagues me. I wish I was stupid like my brother. Stupid and ignorant. Nope, I couldn't do it. I had to have a heart. It was just my curse that I've been struck with hate and compassion all at once.
Perhaps this isn't even making much sense.
Why do people even get angry? or share any other emotion? What does it all mean in the end?
You know what it means? of course you fucking don't, because none of you reading this will have the fucking balls to even make one comment on it. Why? because you're just as clueless as the rest of them with regards to what the fuck I am talking about.
Comments:
I'll comment. I have never been privy to information regarding your private life. But I can give sort of a general opinion.
I think it's a damn good sign that you haven't turned out to be a complete douchebag, considering what you say you've gone through. That shows that you're a strong person. And if you've made it this far, I'm sure you can make it a bit longer.
I'd say, get through school. Work a few months until you have a base of money built up. Then move out.
Hope that helps?
I think it's a damn good sign that you haven't turned out to be a complete douchebag, considering what you say you've gone through. That shows that you're a strong person. And if you've made it this far, I'm sure you can make it a bit longer.
I'd say, get through school. Work a few months until you have a base of money built up. Then move out.
Hope that helps?
thanks man, appreciate it. Yeah, I was planning on doing that pretty much. School is almost done for the most part so really it all comes down to money, and there are plenty of ways to achieve that. So yeah, we'll see how things go.
Hang in there, Gautam :). I'm a firm believer in 'out of sight, out of mind' when it comes to family problems. Once you're in a position where you can pick and choose the people who deserve to be around you, you're golden. Maybe I'm not qualified to say any of this, but anyway, there it is.
In the meantime, any Oscar predictions this year? I've only seen one of the Best Picture nominations (Juno).
In the meantime, any Oscar predictions this year? I've only seen one of the Best Picture nominations (Juno).
Thanks, Mai. I made some predictions earlier to Reuben, but I can't remember all of them. I've seen most of the movies being nominated for the important awards, so I think I have a decent idea on who's going to win what. Javier Bardem will no doubt win an oscar, and so will daniel day-lewis.
While I am sympathetic to your plight I do take exception to you wishing ill on us, your friends.
now without taking anything away from your situation, I don't think you should assume that you have it worse then someone else because for all you know they could have an extremely shitty life but are really good at hiding it.
I mean surely you don't have it worse then people cought up in War, famine,or slavery (yes it still exists to this day)
I hope everything works out for you but just remember, when you think you have been given a raw deal, there is always someone who has it way worse.
now without taking anything away from your situation, I don't think you should assume that you have it worse then someone else because for all you know they could have an extremely shitty life but are really good at hiding it.
I mean surely you don't have it worse then people cought up in War, famine,or slavery (yes it still exists to this day)
I hope everything works out for you but just remember, when you think you have been given a raw deal, there is always someone who has it way worse.
Well firstly, I was pissed when I wrote it; secondly, I meant I had it worse than any of my fellow bloggers and I KNOW I definitely do given the small contingent we have here. OBVIOUSLY there are people OUT there who have it worse than me. But yes, I was pissed at the moment and felt like venting. If anyone took exception to what I said, blow me. :D
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