Looks like my plans for the next few days have changed significantly. Turns out that I have an incredible amount of shit that I need to take care of before I send in my application for PDP--which is due in just over 2 weeks! FUCK!

Man, this totally fucking blows. All this time I spent enjoying myself and not worrying about a damn thing has almost completely screwed me over. The worst thing is that I need a 2nd reference and it pretty much has to be from my classroom teacher. But here is the problem, I havent' done a damn thing in that class. I honestly hate the way the guy structures his classes. Technically I am volunteering in 2 different classes but I am afraid to ask the other guy for a reference letter since i've only spent 4 hours in his classroom. The thing is, I've done a fuck-load more in 4 hours there than I have in over 6 in the other one.

He actually let me run a demo and I am constantly able to help people on chemistry problems because of the way it's structured.

The primary classroom that I am in is bullshit because it doesn't give me much of a chance to do anything, really. I just sit there as the teacher goes on and on while writing notes on the overhead and wonders why his class constantly zones out. It's not that his explanations are shit; it's just that he's very inefficient. As a result, I AM inefficient, which fucking sucks. What sucks even more is that I am even afraid to use him as a reference because I haven't done a damn thing in that class. I'd be glad if he just remembers my name.

FUCK!