So once again, I feel like my expectations are always going to be set really high. Higher than I should be setting it. Maybe I rushed too soon into things. She's clearly on a different level than I am. I am more about just doing things by myself and feeling things out. I like the attention and I like the companionship. But I dislike the feeling that I have to talk to her every day. It's exhausting.

I don't know how I will be able to cope with this and PDP at the same time. I need a break, perhaps. I will definitely not let it get pushed further than it needs to be pushed.

I can't believe I was thinking about marriage. Of course, it's hard not to when you're constantly talking about shit like that with your significant other. I am sure she's ready to get married--again--but I am not. Definitely not after yesterday.

It's difficult to really fathom how I feel. I feel exhausted.