Back again.... Yeah, you know how it goes...which way the wind blows.... goes to show that no one really knows...k that's enough. It appears that the last time I published an entry was just over 14 years back. Wow, time flies. I went back and read some entries of mine around that period and a bit further back. Times have changed. I'm not nearly as angry; I guess I have a lot to be happy about, so that makes sense. No need to detail everything that has transpired within that timeline; but, rest assured, it's been on the upswing since. I am starting to have more of a relationship with my dad now. He's old and he honestly has nobody. It doesn't surprise me since he was never the type to really make or keep friends. That's his prerogative. But being his son, seeing and listening to a sickly 72yo man, possessing many of the character traits, myself, I feel like it's my duty to not allow myself to get to that point as time goes on. Stay healthy, both in body and mind. Don't get too down on yourself or wish you had accomplished more--I am realizing this more by the day. We're all human. We'll die at some point. The first half of my life was riddled with ups and downs. The next half will be the same, but in different capacities, if I let it. Lots to be thankful for. I think I've resigned to the fact that I will never fully have closure with my parents, and...I'm now becoming okay with that. There will always be some residual resentment. But instead of ignoring it or, worse, dwelling on it, I'm now deciding to embrace it, and stow it away in a safe and secure location, away from me, where it can be absolved of the parasitic relationship it's had with me for decades. I can forgive myself and my parents. I'm not ready to do so with my brother. If there comes a point in time where I can, then I will. For now, I feel content with my current position.